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HOT & COLD.
You change your mind, like a girl, change it's clothes.

(I didn't use baby, 'cause idk if i'm his whatsoever now.)
Alvin came over my house in th morning. Slept till ard 2, and we got a big qurralle. Fuck itzxc, i didn't even shout at him or what, he just show me black face. Worst was he just took my house key and left like that. I shouted 'baby' but he don't even give a damn lah, seeing th shawdow just pass th window panels, i broke down again. Is somehow really hurting seeing your love one doing that to you ya ? Guys, put yourself in my shoe and wonder if your love do that to you. The feeling isn't any better. Why much all sucha things happen to me & him, after we patch back, i thought he could understand me more, but (?) Don't think so lahzx.
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(This was what i told him in msn; but he didn't reply me at all.)
Maybe, this will be th last time i'll be talking to you ya ? I've alr tried my best to calm myself down, not to shout at you. If for th past, i comfirm will. But i didn't shout at you, why ? 'cause i 've alr promise you before, i'll change my suck up attitude. And i really dk what's happen to us. Whenever you send me some sorts of sweetest messages, th next day, comfirm got something will happen to us. Like yersterday's long message, th first time you mention " i love you alot uh " I really did smile when i see that message, like last thur, we plan everything well, and everything goes well that night. But, next day, what happen ? I patched back w/ you, tht moment, i'm really real happy. I just hugged you, and really don't wish to let go anymore. But i was thinking at th same moment, what if th same thing repeats again, what am i gonna do ? who am i gonna face ? I guess, love fairy is not blessing us right now ba, giving us all this sorts of obsticals. Bit i seriously hope we can over come it tgt. I really don't wish to let go of your hands again.
And is th first time, i cried so much for a guy. Last time me was, want brk ar ? K loh, thn end ba. But not now, when i start to cherish people ard me, people are letting go of me. Why must all things happen to me and not th others ? Maybe saying so much to you, you don't feel 'bit of pain. You said you love me, but when i'm sad or angry, you didn't even console me or cry when we're having some sorts of big arguments. Just like today, you drop my phone, nehhh even say a sorry infront of my face. but a sudden black face. I asked you nicely, but you say nothing. And it really do hurts seeing you just open my door and walked away like that. i REALLY REALLY don't want lose you, sorry to irratate you. I Love You ): And i hope th answer you giving me tmr, is not th answer i don't want. Goodnnight & tkcares. I going rest my eyes, is like goldfish again.